Thursday, February 3, 2011

Enough For Me

The last month has been very interesting in my life.  A lot has changed but it feels like not much has happened.  I know that sounds impossible to understand, but that is exactly how I feel.   As a recent graduate, I am trying to find a job and that task is something that seems almost impossible.  Not only am I looking for a potential "big girl job", but even a part-time job just to make ends meet right now until I can have my "big girl" job.  Who would have thought I would be in this situation?  I have applied for numerous jobs: from being a barista, retail, shoe salesman, and full-time jobs with companies.  You name it, I have thought about it and probably twice for that matter.   Just to show you an example: Get this, I got an email from a shoe store saying that I am not qualified to work there.  Wait a second, let that one set in....yes I was not qualified.  The girl that has a college degree and 3+ years of retail under her belt.  That makes me wonder who they are hiring, what does it take?  A Masters to sell shoes?  Apparently it does...

I don't want you to read this and feel sorry for me, this is not what I am asking.  However, I would appreciate it if you would pray for me, I think I need all of the help I can get.  Do you ever get the feeling that God is sending you down this path that has all kinds of difficult twists and turns?  Something that keeps you on the edge of your seat because you fear if you let go of your seat you will fall off?  I am there and have been there since about September.  I have faith that things will get better, I know that there are greater and better days to come.  The times like this test your character and your strength.

There is one thing that I continue doing that makes all of the hurt, stress, and pain go away. That is baking and you guessed it right, baking cupcakes.  During that one hour, everything in the world goes away.  I am entranced by the fresh ingredients, measuring everything perfectly, following the directions exactly, and watching them rise in the over.  As I am whipping up the frosting it is like I am putting the finishing touches on something genuinely wonderful.  Something that I did all on my own, something that is truly delicious, magnificent, and can make me smile.  Everyone needs something.  Right now, I have cupcakes and honestly that is enough for me.



  1. Job hunting is so painful right now. I don't even know where to start. I got an email back saying I'm qualified and have the experience but my actual degree is probably a no-go. It was for a job like I've been doing the last two years. Really, what do they want? No one is perfect. Ugh. I understand.

    I would gladly accept your cupcakes anytime. I made no bake cookies and snickerdoodles myself on these snow days. I still can't get out of my driveway. Facebook is my society until this melts. Sigh.

    I miss you, keep your head up. :)

  2. Miss Amazing,
    Just know that snickerdoodles and no bakes are two of my all time favorite cookies! You are a girl after my own heart! I also have faith that things will work out for us, we will land the job of our dreams.